tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29906745099705398982024-03-08T15:42:17.601-08:00Tiny Triumphs From a Tiny LadyEmilyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10391586169498506059noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2990674509970539898.post-15405846524355767722015-07-01T21:17:00.002-07:002015-07-01T21:17:36.177-07:00Day One<div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
Growing up, I always had this idea
that it was most important to be stoic and to keep it all inside.
Recently, I have become a massive cry baby. Both extremes certainly
have benefits and downfalls, and I have come to realize that neither
option is really good for me. I am unhappy. I am so unhappy that I am
either in tears or shut down. This is not okay and it is not normal.</div>
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That being said, I cannot seem to be
able to force myself to get the mental health care that I need. As a
service provider I spend the bulk of my work day encouraging people
to get mental health care. But when it comes to myself, I will not do
it. I do not know why, except that it goes against the stoicism that
I have been so proud of in the past. So here I am, telling people the
importance of getting help, refusing to get help myself. The question
is, can I do it on my own?</div>
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So, how does one go about fixing a
lifetime of deep melancholy without seeking professional help? Well,
I am going to say right now, that I do not recommend it. If you are
feeling depressed and that life is no longer worth living, please
seek help. Do as I say, not as I do. But for myself, I know that I
will not ask for the help. And it is stupid, but it is who I am. I am
stubborn enough to attempt to figure this out on my own. If I have
not noticed a change in my outlook and emotions in one month, I will
seek legitimate mental health care. It is out there, people, I am
going to do it. I promise. Maybe all I need is the challenge. </div>
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